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Thursday, September 30, 2010

Day 197

Dearest Little One, I can't wait to see you! We're so close, but yet so far. We only have 12 weeks left! I wish it was tonight, but I want you to stay in there till you're ready. 
It's 86 days away till Christmas! I can't wait, it's my favorite time of the year. I've already started saving up for gifts. It was funny, I told Micah yesterday it was 87 days away and he said, "Does that mean I can start asking for stuff now??" lol Remember the play-dough? haha I said, yes. Then I thought about it, and I said why don't you wait a couple more weeks.
Last night our manager called, he had route he needed us to do afterall. :) Everything went smoothly, the papers were even early! Ohhh, I almost forgot to tell you! This dog tried to attack your daddy. He went up and threw the paper, then the dog grabbed the paper, and started running after him!  He tried to make it to the car, but the dog was too fast, so he just stood there. Finally, the owner came and got the dog. It was kinda funny, but there for a second I actually thought the dog was going to bite him! 
We just got back from the gym. Micah had his taekwondo class tonight. He jammed his toe really bad, so he couldn't finish the class. It's actually pretty swollen, but I don't think it's broken. 
Your brothers went to go practice with the rep team tonight, so they can get a feel for what it's like. They're going to meet the coaches and the other players. It should be good for them. 
I'm so tired, I think I'm going to sleep for a couple hours and get up when they get home. I love you! 

Your Sister, 

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Day 196

Dear little One, right now I'm overwhelmed by the goodness of God. This morning, your daddy text me to tell me that there is no route in the morning. I was glad and sad at the same time, glad we don't have to get up, and sad because that's less money. I text your daddy back and said, well, that's good and bad. He said yes, then I text and said well, "the Lord gives and takes away, blessed be the name of the Lord." He replied God did both. You see the Lord took away the paper route for tomorrow and He gave our dad some other work to do. God truly is amazing. NEVER doubt God's ability to provide for His children.
Right now I'm at the library with Micah, we've changed days to either Tuesdays or Wednesdays. Thursdays just haven't been working out. I must say, now that we're back at the library on Sundays it really cuts down on any fines we might create. :) lol There's a bright side to everything. Speaking of that, in every situation of your life, remember that. At times in the darkest days, remember "all things work together for good; to them that love God."
I love you!

Your Sister,

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Day 195

Dear Tucson, today I said good-bye to a very dear friend. I miss her terribly, I know we can keep in touch via facebook and msn, but it's not the same. The sad thing is I know I will most likely not see her for several years. Someone once said, missing some one gets easier each day, because although, it's another day apart, it's one day closer to the next time you will see them. I used to think that was a great quote, but is it really true? If you have to calculate years instead of days, where do you come out ahead? I don't know. Good-byes are hard kiddo. 
It's rainy today, it poured where I was at. I thought the weather had taken a turn, because when I got back to T.O. it was very sunny and bright, but now it's dreary.
You know I've been thinking a lot about the grace of God. It's amazing, unexplainable, uncomprehendable, I don't know where to start. The Bible says, "it's a fearful thing to fall into the hands of the living God." That is so true. The past couple of weeks I've been realizing how frail I am, and how there's nothing I can do, all I can do is trust in the grace of God. So far He's never let me down. I wish I could tell you what I'm tying to tell you, but I don't know how. It's like I've discovered my whole exsistence as a person is only by God's grace. It's the reason I'm alive, it's the reason I'm not in Crackdale selling myself on the streets, it's the reason my life's not jacked up, it's like for the first time in my life, I've come to terms with the fact I'm not in control no matter how hard I try, and all those years I thought I was, I was NOT, everything has happened because of the grace of God. Some people say call it fate, some people call it charma, some call it Providence, but I believe it's the grace of God. I don't know why, I can't explain it, I can't even comprehend it, I've learned though it's inexhaustible. Someone once described it in a axcronoym, 
If it wasn't for Christ, it would never be possible. Who would be willing ya know? So I don't expect to be able to figure it out, part of me wants to, but the other part knows I just have to "fall into the hands of a living GOD!" I love you kid, and I hope you make sense out of this someday. If not, I tried, I honestly did. I love you, I really do. 

Your Sister, 

Monday, September 27, 2010

Day 194

Hey you! Today has been crazy so far! Last night we recieved an email from the Wilhites (missionaries to Africa) that said they were in Canada and they could come visit us. I was very excited! We wrote for years, but we've never met. They tried to come 4 years ago, but we were gone. So we frantically cleaned the house and came up with a meal plan. lol We made it work! So far we've had a blast! Everyone hit off. The boys played basketball, the parents told horror stories about having kids (JK!) and your sister, Dyanna, Debrianna and I went to tim hortons!:) Tonight, I'm spending the night with Dyanna. I'm going to miss her soooo much. I probably won't see her again for another five years. :'( So kiddo, I'm gonna let you go early. I love you soo much!

Your Sister,


Ps Dyanna wants to know if you're kicking at all? She wanted to feel you when you earlier, but
you weren't moving. lol

Sunday, September 26, 2010

Day 193

Dear Little One, since you're so big now, I can feel you move almost everyday! I love it. It's still hard to believe a baby is inside my mommy's tummy, but it's true. Today, you were doing this weird movement, it felt like you were rubbing your arm across your mommy's inside, then it felt like you were jabbing her with your elbow. (she said that was pretty painful, so try to tone that down a bit. lol)
Today, your sister and I went and got coffee, at that new little place I told you about. They have some of THE best coffee. I'm addicted to it. It's americano coffee, so it's super strong! but I've had 3 in one week! I need to tone that down a bit.
I've enjoyed my day or night off rather! It's amazing how sleepy through one night really feels. lol I have one more day off and it's back to the grind. Sorry, this post is so short. Nothing exciting happened today. I love you!!

Your Sister,

Saturday, September 25, 2010

Day 192

Hey kiddo! How's life in your world? :) Today's been a lazy day for me. I guess I wasn't too lazy, I did do the paper route. I can't wait to sleep all through the night!! lol After though, all I did was sleep and clean a little bit.
Did I tell you the boys were going to join a basketball house league? Today, they went for an evaluation. Next week is draft night. Scouts from the rep team were there, and they thought the boys were great! They offered to pay their way for rep league! The rep coaches said the practices were on Thursday and Sunday, and when they (your brothers) said they couldn't play on Sunday. They were willing to change the practice day just so they could play! Plus, the coaches were fine with them missing Sunday games in Tournaments. The decision hasn't been made to whether they're going to accept, but it was an honor that they were chosen!
It was funny, I did my hair tonight (straightened it.) and after I did it, I was doing laundry, so your daddy comes up to me(btw we have the BEST dad in the whole world!)and says, "wow, you must be really serious about that laundry, if you're gonna fix it just for that." hahaha I thought it was really funny, simple things amuse me. I told him I was trying to give a new and improved look for housewives. ahaha
Well, I'm going to hit the sack, I love you!!!!

Your Sister,

Friday, September 24, 2010

Day 191

Dear Tucson, today a miracle happened! The papers were early. I was so thankful to God, I was actually able to go back to sleep, at a semi decent hour. Tomorrow is our last day, then we get a 2 or 3 day break! yipee! I hope I remember what it's like sleeping all through the night. lol It supposed to be fall, and it's hot again! Today, it's 86 degrees! The past week or so, it's been in early 60's. It's really annoying, cuz it won't make up it's mind, and my allergies are driving me crazy! I can't breathe or sleep very good.
Your mommy has been watching these tv shows about having babies and stuff. I watched a couple with her today, in the midst of all the screaming and yelling, and excruciating pain, I thought it looked scary, so I ask your mommy if she was scared, she said no, she can do it, she's done it 5 times before! I think she just wants that baby out of her. lol
I'm sooo excited! Your daddy and I went to the bank, and afterwards, he took me to this mini outlet mall. There's this store I love called Garage. They have the best deals on clothes with something minor wrong with them. The other day I went the store and the sweater was $34, so I decided I didn't need it. Today, I went to the outlet store and they had one that was only $5!!!! The only thing wrong with it was it was missing a button, and they had taped the button on, because it had only fallen apart!!!! I love it. I'm so happy and thankful. I'm going to go to bed. I hope I can sleep tonight. I love you!!!

Your Sister,

Thursday, September 23, 2010

Day 190

Hey you! We've made it to day 190! Ten more days and we've reached the 200 mark! That will be a huge milestone. :) I reread my post from yesterday, and I realized I rambled a lot. lol When I first started this blog, the goal was just to tell you everything that happened while you were in the womb, then as I went through things, I realized how little those things mean in comparison to the big picture of what life is all about. I thought of things that I went through/am going through as a teenager I may forget, but I want you to have what you will need to get through. In the end it won't matter what we've done, the memories you will have will be from when you were older, by the time you will read this and it will mean something to you, the little things will seem insignificant. So I want to give you something that will be significant, something that will make a difference in your life.
You know what I said about devotions yesterday? Well, today I ate my own preaching. God should me last night during church, I was putting my job first. Every morning I get up to do the route with just enough time to throw my clothes on, brush my teeth, and we're out the door. When I get home a lot of times I will have my devotions or first I'll go back to sleep. The problem with going back to sleep is, I generally oversleep, and then I don't have time to have them till that night. This morning, I got up and had my devotions before the route. Tucson, I was amazed at the difference. Try it! It changes your whole day. I can't wait till tomorrow. lol I'm going to hit the sack early today, I'm shot. I love you!!!

Your Sister,

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Day 189

Hey little one!! I hope you are doing great today. I'm alive, and very much blessed. I'm extremely tired, but my coffee has me awake enough were I can function, but I can't sleep. ;) I'm on the bus now going to teach a piano lesson. Your sister is on call this week as a babysitter for a doula. (someone who helps and encourages in a home birth.) So she's unable to do the route. I have no idea how she does this during the week. lol I'm generally only the weekend fill-in and once during the week to give her a break. This morning was hectic! I only got 3 hours of sleep, then we left for the route (your poor daddy only got about an hour and a half, because he got back late from the meeting.) The papers were supposed to be there at 3:15, and we're supposed to be there at 3. So at 3:15 our manager text us and says the papers  won't be here till 3:55. So 3:55 rolls around the corner, and we get a knock on the window, during the storm the power went out, they don't know when the papers are going to be there! By now I've slept all I can sleep, and I'm thinking about quitting. So finally around 5:15 the papers get there. By now I'm completely shot. I didn't have a coffee, so I can barely keep my eyes open. (did I mention your daddy snored the whole time??!! :) I try not to let myself get overwelmed, but it was very hard this morning! Finally, we get back a little after 8. I eat breakfast chat for a bit with the boys and at 9 I'm in bed for an hour, then I get up and go meet my friend for coffee. (it was delicious!) We had a nice time together. By the time I get home, talk with your mom for a bit, make myself and Micah lunch. I'm ready to crash, then I remember it's my day to clean the kitchen. :( lol I clean it, make your mommy something to eat. I try to sleep cuz I only have an hour, but the coffee was still in my system. So 20 min. later I'm out the door to go teach piano. Then I'll go to church and crash (hince the reason I'm writing my blog now.) as soon as I get home! Then I'll wake up and do it one more day...You know kiddo, we've been blessed. Some people go and work a full day after there route. Thankfully, we don't have to. Sometimes I wonder if God's been too good for us ya know? People in 3rd world countries would give anything to live the way we do. 
The key I've found in keeping this up is having your devotions. I know you'd prolly think it doesn't make sense, and sleep is the answer, but it's not. I'd tell you to try one day without reading your Bible and praying, but I don't want you to miss a day. I know you may, but do your best not to. Stay in the Word. It can make and break you. It's amazing how having that time with God changes your whole attitude! When I go without it, I'm very irritable, I have no patience, and I'm very hard to get along with. At camp two years ago, this preacher gave us this example: A famous piano player practiced 15 hours a day. He said he could go one day without practicing, and no one would notice, he could go two days and only his friends and family could tell he didn't practice, but if he went three days without practicing, the whole world knew he hadn't practiced. It's the perfect example of a Christian who hasn't had his devotions! Sometimes I can fake it for one day, but on the second day I'm history. So as my friend, Andrew, tells me everytime we talk, "stay in the WORD!" I love you! 

Your Sister,

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Day 188

Dear Tucson, You're 27 weeks old today!!! About 13 weeks and you should be here! I'm getting so excited, I do wish time would fly, but I can't complain really, because it's not going by too terribly slow.
Today, we kind of changed things up a bit. I took Micah to the library. I think everything good was checked out. He didn't get one book and we were there for a VERY long time. lol I found him a few books, so that seemed to satisfy him.
Your daddy's gone today, he went to Canada's National Preacher's Conference with 2 other preachers. Hopefully, the meeting is going good. They were serving steak, so I'm assuming the food is going to be good. :)
I miss your daddy's when he's gone, but I love the simplicity of meal plans. Tonight, it's just go for what you know. Something that's rarely done when your daddy's here. I guess it's easier to please 5 kids, than one man. Of course your daddy would never complain if we did do that, and many times he helps us cook dinner to make it easier on us. I do like a full meal, but sometimes I just wants french fries and gravy with cheese on top, something completely unhealthy, but delicious! Of course kitchen clean-up is a lot easier, too. So you can see there's many reasons why I enjoy it, but I understand why we can't do that every night. One, your brothers would starve, because they wouldn't have enough to eat. Two, they would eat completely unhealthy. Three, they would use all their money to go by McDonalds...and the list goes on, but hey, once in a while it's perfectly fine to have "go-for-what-you-know-nights." That is something your grandma~Hazel invented.(your mommy never had that growing up.) I wish you would've been able to meet her. She was a beautiful woman inside and out. She was so proud of all her grandchildren. Once every year or so, her and Papa-Alexa (your grandpa) would actually take 4 kids for 2 weeks. It was a blast. I still have great memories of her and those summer trips. She used to keep this little notebook on top of the fridge (so we couldn't reach it) and she would write down everything we'd done wrong while our parents were gone. She would always worn us if we didn't straighten up she was going to show the list to our parents when they came to pick us up. Miracle of all miracles, we never got in trouble. :) Years later we asked our parents if they ever knew about that, and they were said, "YOU WERE BAD FOR GRANDMA HAZEL?????" Yea, that didn't go over too well. It would of been better for us, to have left the we were perfect for her image in their heads. lol
I gotta go kiddo, Landon and I are going to the store! I love you!!!

Your Sister,

Monday, September 20, 2010

Day 187

Dear Little One, I got to feel you kick so strong today!!! I was suprised at how strong it was! It was very painful for your mommy though. You must be very strong, because your mommy said none of the rest of us kicked as hard as early as you do. :)
I don't really like this time of year, it's beautiful outside, but inside it's really sticky(they turned the air off) and our allergies are all bad, so no one sleeps good at night. It's all because we're caught in the middle of summer and fall. It's a lot like life ya know? If you're caught in the middle between God and yourself, it's never good. You find yourself always wanting more. Part of you wants all of God so your emptiness can be filled, while the other part of you longs to please yourself, and since you're only fueling the flesh with pleasure half of the time, you wonder what it's like if you go all the way. When in reality pleasing the flesh is a cheap imitation of what God wants to do for you. I'll never forget something my friend told me back in '08, it was something that would forever help me. He said, "it's all or nothing." At first I tried to argue, I said, "No, somethings better than nothing." He replied it's not like that with God. The more I learn, that's so true. It's all or nothing. I know sometimes the world will look pretty good, and for a season it is good, but when reality sits in and everything comes crashing down, it's that complete faith in Jesus Christ that you long for, because deep down inside, you know that's what you not only want, but need. Choose Jesus Christ, Tucson, choose Jesus. I love you!!!

Your Sister,

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Day 186

Hey little one! Today is beautiful outside! I have this feeling I want to go somewhere, but I don't know where. lol I'll probably go for a walk in a bit. I just hate being inside if it's nice outside, especially when I know days like this are getting fewer and far between.
Church was great today. We changed the setup of church, we generally sit everyone together, but this time we made a middle aisle. It looked really nice, it's amazing how space in between chairs can make a world of difference. :) I need to take pictures and post them up, because I'm sure we will have moved by the time you're old enough to remember. Even if I just take them for us, so we can keep the memories alive. Your daddy preached on helping others. The passage was from Galatians 6, the part that really stuck out to me, was verse 10, "...let us do good unto all men, especially unto them who are the household of faith." He briefly spoke about how, many times Chistians are hard to deal with and how they don't always act like Christians, but we supposed to still do good to them. Though he only said that in passing, that's what really stood out to me. You see Tucson, I know it sounds backwards, but unfortunately it's true. Sometimes professing Christians are the hardest people to deal with. I guess it's because you expect more from them, and when they don't act Christlike, it's very hard and confusing. It's so much easier to work with lost people, because you know they're gonna treat you wrong, and when they do wrong, you have the patience and longsuffering to deal with them, because you know why they act like that. Where the Christian, you don't know why and you know they're not supposed to be doing that. I often stuggle in dealing with Christian, and today God should be that I was wrong, and I need to good them too, especially to them. I hope this helps you when you're dealing with people. I wish someone would've told beforehand. Your daddy always tells me to expect people to fail, that way I won't be suprised or hurt when they do, afterall they are only human. At times I still expect the best in people, which it is important to believe in people, but you must have a balance. One of my favorite quotes is, "Life is a balance of holding on and letting go." It's so true. I love you!!!

Your Sister,

Saturday, September 18, 2010

Day 185

Hey little one!!! How are you doing? I'm actually doing alright. I should be tired, but I had a HUGE mug of coffee before I started babysitting. :)
Today, was the paper route. It actually went really well. Your daddy and I decided to try something different this morning. He said, every time we've did this we've survived. So we know we can make it through no matter how hard it is, but today let's try to OVERCOME! I decided that was a good idea. We stuff papers, we talked, we had coffee, until finally, an hour late the Star decided to show up. At first, I was like, oh, boy we're off to a bad start, but I remembered overcome, not just survive. We began the route, it was going pretty good, at one point I looked all around me, I was almost completely surrounded by newspapers and could barely get out of the car. I almost let it overwhelm me, but I remembered our goal, and chose to overcome. See Tucson, that's the mistake I've been making all along, I've let it overwhelm me and I chose to just survive. That's the way a lot of people live there lives, and unfortunately, I do, too. As I continued stuffing and throwing, I began to think of all the good things I had in life. I have a wonderful family, I have an awesome God who not only lets me serve Him, He wants me to serve Him. I have a new sibling on the way, I have great friends who love me. I have everything I need, I may not have everything I want, but I do have all my needs. I began to thank God for the route, because for now that's a way He's chosen to meet our needs. When I lay my head down at night, it doesn't matter if there's nothing in the bank, it doesn't matter if I have all the clothes I want in my closest, it doesn't make a difference if the cell phone charging next to me is a prepaid or an Iphone. It doesn't matter if I have to get up in 2 hours to go stuff newspapers, to help provide for my family. When I'm in bed, I can't tell that we live in a small apartment, instead of a big house. What does matter is that I can lay my head down in peace, which is something money can't buy. When you grow up and understand things, don't worry about what you don't have, be thankful for what you do have. I'm sure if the person working on Bay Street, with a BMW, the 4G Iphone, brand new 5 bedroom house, money in the bank, a walk-in closet full of clothes, and anything else their heart could wish for would be honest they'd trade places with me, and if they wouldn't I don't care. I love my life, I love what God's chosen for me. So Tucson, I say all this to say, don't let life control you, don't just survive, it's a jacked up place to be, OVERCOME! You can do ALL things through Christ. I love you kiddo!!!'

Your Sister,

Friday, September 17, 2010

Day 184

Hey kiddo! I'm posting a picture of your mommy and I that Alexa took last Sunday. She was 25 weeks along. Doesn't she look beautiful? This pregnancy thing has really been good for her. :) haha She's always been pretty though. I read in one of her million pregnancy books, that during your 2nd trimester you look really good. Your face glows, your hair is really shiny and healthy looking, and a bunch of other stuff I can't remember. lol It's a lot to take in. I lost track of how many books I read. Somewhere between 10 and 20 I was amazed and completely horrified at the thought about being pregnant. Your mommy has really opened my eyes to what it was like. I've seen in it movies, they make it look like a piece of cake.
So this post is going to be extremely short, because I found out we have to deliver 243 papers tomorrow, which is a lot. Your daddy told me to go to bed early tonight, which I'm gonna try, but I don't know what my allergies are going to do. lol He said lay in bed if I can't sleep. I never got why parents tell you that. Do they realize that's one of the most boring things to do??? You tell them you can't sleep, so they say rest your eyes, so I'm thinking, um... surely, there's another way to do that. I do think watching tv and laying down is more productive, you see the tv makes you sleepy, or at least it does me. So that helps me go to sleep faster. I've tried taking meds (for my allergies) to knock me out, but that hasn't been working, or so I thought, then last night I couldn't sleep hardly at all, so I guess something is better than nothing. I think I'm going to have your daddy get me some Claritin when he goes to the States next month. Anyway, now that I've rambled on about nothing. I guess I'll try to "rest my eyes" since obviously I don't have anything good to tell you. :)
I love you though, if I could tell you anything in the world and that was all I could tell you, it would be I LOVE YOU, I really do.

Your Sister,

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Day 183

Dear Tucson, how are things in your world? Mine is crazy! lol I can't remember if I told you or not, but I volunteer at a women's shelter. The drama this week has reached an all time high, seriously, it's crazy! I wish some people would learn to grow up. It's so stressful, and it wears you down. The shelter is run by all women, so obviously just starting with that you know there's going to be problems. lol It's dumb really, but without Christ how can it get any better ya know? I hope one day, they will get saved. It could be the first all Christian woman's shelter in Toronto. :) Now that would be something!
Landon got his cast off today. He was pretty excited about that. He went outside and played basketball most of the afternoon. Although, his wrist is still really stiff, so he's using his left some. The doctor said everything looked great on the x-Ray, which I'm very thankful for! If not, they would've put him to sleep and rebroke it.
We got a thank-you letter from Jimmy's parents today. (the kid who had cancer in his leg, but God healed it.) They said he's doing great, his leg is fine. He started football practice last week, and his coaches said he looked great! God truly is an amazing God! Don't ever be afraid to ask for the impossible, because the God we serve is the God of impossible. There's this verse in Gen. 18, that's says, "Is anything to hard for the LORD?" The answer is no!
It rained almost all day today. Afterwards though, it was beautiful outside. :) Micah started taekwondo back tonight. They found him a spot on Thursdays, where he will be in a class with kids his age, instead of the family taekwondo of all ages. He seemed pretty excited and he said he had fun, so that's good. I've watched the class, I don't really think they look enjoyable, but hey he's 8, he likes a lot of things I don't. ;)
An update on the paper route, they extended our fill in for an extra week, so another week of fold, fold, rubber band, and throw. lol Thank the Lord for His provision.
Well, I think that's all for today. I love you!!!

Your Sister,

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Day 182

Hey little one!! Today was your mommy's monthly midwife appointment. So I got to hear your heart beat!! I liked it better when we heard it at the ultrasound, it was a lot louder, but I'm still glad I got to hear it nonetheless. :) Everything looked good, the measurements were perfect, too. :) You were big enough where the midwife could feel your little bum and head from the outisde. I'm so thankful you're doing great!
I went to gravity this morning, and my arms are already sore! I should've built myself up before I went, lol but I never think about this stuff. We tried this new kick back exercise which was weird, but I missed the squat stand and kicked over the top and scraped 10 layers of skin off of my shin, which is still in pain. The swelling did go down, what annoys me is I almost didn't try that exercise, but I always try new stuff, so I did and BAM! I hurt myself. :p
Your daddy is getting used to the route, so has assured me or tried to assure me that it won't be as bad as I think it will be on Saturday, I'm still not convienced. Your sisters playing this really depressing song, it's weird. I have no idea why she likes it, she listens to a lot of stuff I think should've never made it, but don't tell her I said that.
I'm really sad summer has left me, I saw people with boots and coats on today. Although, it's not that cold, I know the inevitable is coming. The bright side is, that means you're coming, so I guess that helps. Still, I wish summer would stay. :( I think my allergies have gotten the best of me again, I'm going to try to sleep. I love you kid!!!

Your Sister,

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Day 181

Hey Little One, how are you doing? We are all sickish, I say sickish, because we do have legit sickness symptoms, but they are all allergy related. It just comes with this time of the year. I hope you don't suffer from allergies, although it runs in the family. I hope your strong and healthy, but sometimes I wonder. You see, I believe God wants you to something great for Him. Something "exceedingly and abundantly, and above all" we could ask or think, but I don't know what that is. I do know this, God has chosen the foolish things to confound the wise, so I can't help, but think in society's eyes you may not be popular or perfect. That said, I don't know at all what God says, God may have you "make it" in the worlds eyes so you can do what God has for you, and then when you do it, you'll still confound the wise. I have no idea, I'm just going to wait and see what God does. :)
They started another Nancy Drew game, and I'm rather pleased with myself. I sat down 10 minutes to help your mommy and I helped her solve this mind game. We went to the gym tonight after I got back from teaching piano lesson. It felt good to be back at it, but at the same time it didn't. lol I haven't worked out in over a week since your daddy was gone. Well, my allergies have got the best of me, I'll try to write more tomorrow. I love you!!!!

Your Sister,

Monday, September 13, 2010

Day 180

Dear Tucson! Guess what??!!! We have reached a major milestone in this pregnancy!!! We have less than 100 days to go!!! 99 days left till you make your grand entrance into life. You know I'm going to be really dissapointed if you come late right?? Early I can handle, but the late not so much. I hate to ask you to come on time, because your mommy generally always delivers early, but this is a one time thing. You see winter solest is your mommy's favorite day of the year, and she would really be happy if you were born that day. :) I know only God controls that, but if He doesn't mind, go ahead and come the 21st. ;)
We've almost solved our mystery. I forgot how long those things take us to solve! I helped out with two major parts, so I was happy. The new paper route is terrible! I didn't go, but apparently it's one of the hardest routes there is. They started at 3:30 am and didn't finish till 7:30 am. I'm already dreading Saturday. I hoping to get my mind prepared for that day, I keep trying to just be thankful God's provided, but in the back of my mind I know it's going to be even worse than the last Saturday I did it. Oh, well, tis life.
I've decided my body isn't strong enough to play monsters in basketball. I'm all bruised up. lol I'm sure I will play them again, but not till I make a full recovery. I've also decided I need a boyfriend, a very BIG one so he can be my defender. I can't play in the post. I guess I'll start my search tomorrow. hahaha jk well, maybe:p but that's just between you and me, ;) so keep that on the low.
Nothing else is going on, I need to go finish up the laundry. I love you!!!!

Your Sister,

Sunday, September 12, 2010

Day 179

Hey little one! Today was a really nice day. It was a little on chilly side. We went to church, and then afterwards we had yummy Philly steaks. We all ate outside for probably the last time of this year. :( good-bye summer. I'm going to miss you, come back soon! :) After dinner we all went over the fence and played a little basketball. Well, minus your mommy. (You should've seen her, she looked beautiful today.:) Your brothers are monsters on the court! They are like the twin towers. I can't get any rebounds, and they block all my shots. Ok, I did make two, but out of two games. Sometimes I don't even jump, because when they jump it's almost impossible to get the ball. Plus, I'm scared they're gonna plow into me, which they did a couple of times. lol I'm blessed to have walked away without an injury. haha ;)
Right now everyone's working on the new Nancy drew came. I found it rather ironic the setting for the mystery is in Canada. This game is very frustrating, we've been trying to crack this game inside the game to get a code we need, but so far we haven't beat it. :( Oh, well, we're gonna try again tomorrow.
You know how I said our manager would call us soon? He did. lol He called the day he knew your daddy was coming home, but he told him he needed a day to recover. So we're starting tomorrow. Well, I'm not, your daddy and sister are going to take the first run. So praise God from whom all blessings flow, He's once again provided us with a way to meet our needs. :)
Well, kiddo, I've got some emails to catch up on. I love you!!!!

Your Sister,

Saturday, September 11, 2010

Day 179

Dear baby, your daddy came home today!!! He really enjoyed the meeting. He's already back to work though, he left for a visit a couple of hours ago. :) I think I'm getting sick, which really sucks, because I hate being sick, but oh, well.
Everyone was excited because they got a Nancy drew computer game in at the library today. So they're busy playing that, I'm not a huge fan myself, I loved the books when I was younger, I read a most if not all of hers. Computer games have never really been my thing. Sometimes I will go and help them try and figure out a part of it, but that's about it.
I was talking to this person today, and she had been treated wrongly, but she did not want to treat the person wrongly in return. She said, her soul is the most important thing she owns, she's not going to throw away all her integrity and honesty just to get some one back, I just can't get those words out of my head, "my soul is the most important thing I own..." This morning I read that verse in Matthew, "For what is man profited, if he gain the whole word, and lose his own soul? or what shall a man give in exchange for his soul?" I have no idea what I'm trying to tell you, because honestly, I don't even know, I guess it's more I'm thinking out loud. It was a sobering thought. Baby, please, give your life to Jesus, please. I love you.

Your Sister,

Friday, September 10, 2010

Day 178

Dear Little one, tonight I tried a new recipe. You know those brownies I told you about? The ones with the chocolate chip cookie dough in them? This time I put peanut better cookies on top, and instead of spreading chocolate on top, I melted the reese (peanut butter) chips on top. It was yummy! :)
Your mommy had a really good day today. :) She was able to clean her room, the laundry room, and help Micah in school! I think thr worst if finally over. At least that's what I'm hoping for. If it's not we will still make it through, because God has promised us He will never give us more than we can bear. Sometimes I wonder, but I look back at everything, and we have ALWAYS made it through. Sometimes you will go through hard times in life, and just when you think you can't go on, something else will happen. Let God's word comfort you, run to God's Word. You will be so tempted to turn to everything, but God and His Word. Believe me, I know! but try to not let the situation overwelm you. It's will always be something you can handle, trust me. I know alot times whenever I'm telling you things that will help you in life, it's always in reference to the negative things in life. I don't want you to think life will always be filled with hard times, because it's not, but it is the hard times will test you and your true character will shine. You see the times in life when everything is going good, i can't really teach you what to do, I do have one warning, when everything is going great, don't ever forget God. It's so tempting to only realize your need for Him when you're down, but you need Him just as much when you're on the mountaintop as in the valley. Everything I tell you, I hope will equip you for your teenage life. You might read this before or you might this during your teenage life, but I hope that you will not make the mistakes I made and you won't be wondering how or what you're supposed to be doing. I know you will have to learn a lot on your own, but it is my goal to teach you everything I wish some one would've told me. You see, when you're a teenager, I may have forgotten what it was like, or I might not be here,(don't worry, I don't plan on going anywhere soon, but then again, I don't know what God has planned down the road) but I want you to know I love you, I love you so much!!!

Your Sister,

Thursday, September 9, 2010

Day 177

Dear Tucson, How are things in your world? You didn't move as much today, well, at least you weren't as high. When you're really low we can't feel you kick. Last night you moved a lot! It was so cute we could see you moving through your mommy's tunny. There was this little area on her side and whenever you would move you could see her tummy rise and fall. It was sooo cute. :) I think everyone, but Alexa has got to feel you kick. She was gone last night, so she didn't get to see you move or feel you kick.
It's Thursday so I took Micah to the library. They didn't have anything good today, I got one book, and it just weird, so I had to read it. lol Micah on the other hand, decided it was a good day. I think he actually got in line 3 times, because he kept finding new books. He forgot his library card, so Alexa brought it to us. It was hilarious, because when we were walking home, I told him that was really nice of Alexa to bring your card. So he says, yea, I thought it was, too, but I don't know what happened to her, she must of changed, because the old Alexa wouldve never done that. She would've text you and said Micah left his card, come back home and get it. lol Then he says, I don't know what happened to the old Alexa, maybe some one is living inside her! hahaha I was cracking up!!!! That kid never ceases to amaze me, sometimes I think his brain functions on a whole different level than ours does. It was funny yesterday, I got home and your mommy tells me they shut the air off(meaning the apartment building. they control when it goes on for the summer and when it goes off in the winter. We are "supposed" to be able to control the dail, but it doesn't really work, so we are basically at their mercy. :) Although, we can shut it completely on or off.) so, I said, "oh, really???" It's cool outside, but it's still hot inside. So then Micah says, "oh, they didn't shut it off, I did. I was cold." lol So he shut the whole apartment unit's air off, because HE was cold. lol
Well, I think I'm gonna hit the sack early tonight. The past two nights I've stayed up really late chatting. lol (Don't ever do that when your a teenager ok???? Well, maybe you're allowed to on weekends on in the summer....we shall see. hahaha;) I love you!!!

Your Sister,

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Day 176

Dear Little one, Today has been a very busy day. I cleaned the house all day, it was pretty dirty. I got behind, since Monday was the holiday. I'm almost all caught up with the laundry, too. :) Your mommy worked with Micah with his school work all day. Samuel and Alexa did school, too, but Alexa went to the library to work(which is a LOT quieter. lol) Landon, who conveniently broke his hand two weeks before school started is helping with the huge project of organizing all of the school books and score keys. I think he thought it was going to be a good thing to start school 2 weeks late, but now I believe he's changed his mind. :)
Your daddy's still gone. I didn't talk to him today, but some other people did, and the meeting is still going good. The Penner family was supposed to be there today. I really liked them, you will probably get to meet them one day. They were the missionaries we had in a while back to Toronto, so whenever they get to the field, I'm assuming they stay a long time and you actually remember them.:)
Well, that's all for today. I love you!

Your Sister,

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Day 175

Dear Tucson, Today was really nice outside. This weekend it was cold, to me at least. It was in the 60's. I know that doesn't seem cold, but when you've been in the 90's its pretty chilly. It's funny how quickly your body adjusts to new temperatures. Next spring, when it's in the 60's it will seem very warm compared to the below freezing weather we've had all winter. I'm hoping for another mild winter like last year, but I don't know. Your daddy thinks we will get a hot one, since the summer was very hot for Canada, so I don't know... time will tell.
Your sister started piano lessons today. It was her first lesson with a new teacher. I had Lori last year, but your sister didn't take lessons last year. She seemed to like her, and I think she will be able to teach her theory and technic to give her new ideas to incorporate in her music.
We watched another one of those 4 hour movies tonight. I thought this one was one of the dumbest movies ever! It had this eerie feel to it, even though it wasn't scary, and I hated the ending. That's one of my pet peeves, movies with bad endings. I can live with a bad middle part, but if the ending sucks, I can't stand it. Well, that's my rant for the day.
I've been sitting staring at the computer screen for 15 minutes trying to think of something to tell you, but I can't think of I guess that's it for today! I love you!!!

Your Sister,

Monday, September 6, 2010

Day 174

Dear little one, I got to feel you kick again! This time Samuel got to feel it, too. He was very excited! It doesn't really feel like a kick. For now it feels like you're pushing against the skin, later it will feel like a light thump. For now I'm just happy I can feel your alive. I knew you were because I was able to hear your heartbeat, but now I can actually feel you moving! :)
Your mommy was very excited, because she thought she was only 23 weeks along! :) She was on my blog today, and she told me, my countdown thing was off. So I said, no, I don't think it is, and she said, I'm only almost 24 weeks. So she calculated it up, and you're almost 25 weeks old! She was thrilled to pieces to stay the least. I was thankful, I'd hate to have to add another week. lol So 15 weeks left till you made your grand entrance into the world.
Your daddy left today, he went to this preachers meeting in Ohio. They have it every year, he tries to go every year, but I think he missed a year somewhere in there. I'm not really sure how he found out about it, but he said it's a really good meeting.
This morning was the last morning for the paper route fill in, I think I'm going to miss it, but at the same time I'm glad it's over. :) Although, I'm sure our manager will call us all too soon for another fill in. lol
Today, was Labor Day. We didn't do a whole lot, it was more of a relaxing holiday, which was nice. I slept in super late, I was trying to catch up on sleep. I think I'm still behind, but I'm going to steal my friend's line on this one, "I'll sleep when I'm dead." :) I need to go switch out the laundry. I love you kiddo!

Your Sister,

Sunday, September 5, 2010

Day 173

Dear Tucson!! Guess what???!!! I got to feel you kick!!!! I am so happy. :) I've been waiting months for that. Because your mommy's had so many kids, she carries you really low. So most of the time we can't feel you kick, but your mommy said you go higher when she goes to sleep at night. So I told her, well, just yell for me and I'll come, I go to bed after you anyways. So tonight she did, and I got to feel you kick 3 or 4 times. :) I do hope you will try to stay a bit high during the day, because it hurts your mommy when you're so low and you kick.
Before I forget I did the route this morning, and it went surprisingly well! I decided it wasn't that bad, and that it was definitely a good thing. If everyday was like that, so I guess I can handle one bad day a week. Tis life anyways, if everything went well all the time, I'd never learn to be thankful. For example what if I wouldn't of worked on Saturday? I wouldve never even of given it a second thought to praise God even more for the work today than I did on Saturday, because today was easier. God is definitely wiser than we are.
So today was our first service back in the Library. It went well. At first I was disappointed, because no new people came, but for now I'm just going to have to walk by faith, and trust that what we did wasn't to bring more people in the doors, but to obey the Great Commission which says, "...preach the Gospel to every creature..." I know we haven't done that yet, so we've got a ways to go. I'm thankful for the adventure we had this summer. It taught me a lot, and I know God had a purpose, whether I see it here or on the other side. God's been good, kid, He's been real good. I love you, baby!

Your Sister,

Saturday, September 4, 2010

Day 172

Hey kiddo! How's things in your world? Today,(or rather this morning) I did the paper route with your daddy. I was sooo tired. lol It was the worst day, I wanted to cry. I was hoping your daddy would just pull over and let me go hide behind a tree and let the tears fall. Of course this is real life, so that didn't happen. Work is money and money pays bill. It's a necessary part of life. Sometimes the job sucks, and you just keeping going. You don't go cry, because you don't want to do something, you, well, you do like your daddy taught us, "suck it up like a man and take it." I tried to be thankful, but at 3 in the morning it wasn't working out too well. Anyways, since it was Saturday, there were soooo many papers! I thought it would never end. Plus, it rained so we had to bag the papers which takes even longer. Your daddy saw I was struggling, he tried to cheer me up, by saying, were actually doing really good on time, which by now it was 5, but I looked at the papers and knew we had at least two hours left. I wanted to throw the papers away, but I didn't for two reasons, unfortuantely, the latter being the main driving force. One because of our Christian testimony with our manager, and two we needed the money for bills. Oh, and I guess three, I don't want to ever get fired. lol Finally, around 6, I got my burst of energy and I was good for the rest of the morning.:) I must confess, at the end of the route, we got Tim hortons, and I got 10 chocolate timbits, yes, you read that right, 600 calories! I decided it was worth it, the first five were delious, but the next 5 I thought about how hard that would be to work off. lol :) I guess the moral to the story is, don't ever get an early morning paper route unless that's your ONLY option. lol In all seriousness, God was good to give us the work the exact time we needed it.
I have a kind of funny story for you. This morning your mommy told me to get dog bones for Daisy (her leg is doing fine by the way) at the mall. So I'm looking for the pet store, and finally, I ask the lady at the information book. She's said, we don't have a pet store in this mall, so I said, yes, there was this one on the corner, and I told her the name. She's said, ma'am that's stores been out for a year and a half. hahaha So said, oh, sorry, to bother you. lol So I get home and your mommy's said, oh, well, I haven't been to that mall in a while. :) lol
Well, I think I'm gonna hit sack, I think I may be going on the route tomorrow, I can't remember if Alexa is or not. I love you!!!

Your Sister,

Friday, September 3, 2010

Day 171

Dear little one! If I ever decide to do cyclefit again, shoot me! lol My legs are killing me!!! Plus, I did the route, which was walking, then I went to the mall with everyone for back to school shopping. To make matters worse I took the subway, which has a LOT of stairs to get there. lol So next week when I'm not in pain and want to take the class, remind me of what it's like. :)
Your mommy and daddy went shopping, or I guess window shopping is a better way to put it. They are trying to find you a stroller. It's hard to find, we need one that is tall enough so your daddy and brothers (they're 6'3 and 6'2; I think.) can push it without breaking their backs, but small enough were it won't take up a bunch of room in our small apartment. The first seems to be waay harder than the latter. They found one that could possibly work, but it was $350, so they're going to try to find one in the states.
Tonight I went to a little birthday thingy for a friend from the women's dropin where I volunteer. We've become really good friends, at first we didn't hit off, but now were pretty close. It was fun. I got to meet some new people, they had some funny stories, I'm suprised my abs aren't sore. haha
Your brother Micah is sleeping next to me weasing in his sleep, I think I should wake him up and give him some ashma medicine, but I don't know...gee-wiz, where's a mother when you need one. hahaha I'm kidding. Well, I'm gonna get off, I'm helping in the morning with the route, and 2 o'clock is going to come VERY early. lol I love you!!!!

Your Sister,

Thursday, September 2, 2010

Day 170

Hey you! We've made it to a new digit.:) Ok, I decided that the gravity instructor isn't a serial killer, he's just a nice extremely hard trainer. :) He also teaches cyclefit class, which is a LOT harder than gravity. Your daddy used to make us take it once a week. It's a real pain in the butt literally. :p lol I've gotton out of the habit, so I have decided to work myself up to it. On Tuesday I took the class for 10 minutes, and today I did it for 20 min. Bob(the instructor) told me to get out of bed earlier so I can get to the gym in time for the whole class...we shall see about that. :) lol
It's Thursday, so I took Micah to the library. The guy who works there is a real pain, I don't think he likes us. lol One week he wanted us to pay $9 for a book that only cost $6, because we had spilled water on it. I don't mind paying for a book IF we had ruined it, but it wasn't. (it just wasn't completely dry, which I didn't even know or I wouldn't of taken it back, Micah just threw it in the bag. So I went back the next time to plead my case with the head librarian, and she agreed with me, and she said, what that guy did was wrong, he shoud've never did that without first consulting her. When we went today, he was super nice to us, (the library is very small, and we pretty much know every worker, so we chat with them when we first go in)then the lady left, and he was rude again. Such is life kiddo. lol
We got another temporary route, which we start tomorrow and it goes through Monday morning. It has it's pros and cons. The pros are that we get to do the weekend which are the best paid days and the cons are it's a very short fill in, it starts tomorrow, and it will be on Sunday our service of new beginnings and I will be super tired. lol Well, kiddo, I gotta go, I love you!!!

Your Sister,

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Day 169

Dearest little one! How are you today? This morning your daddy and I did our normal gravity class. I think I'm getting stronger because it didn't hurt super bad. Our instructor Bob is a nice old(don't tell him I said that....;) man, I say old, he's probably only 50, but he's super nice. I do have one thing against him. I think he enjoys seeing us in pain! lol I know you probably think I'm crazy, but it's true. I told your daddy and he thought I was out of my mind, so I told him to just watch him. Sure enough, he now agrees with me. You should see him, when we have really hard exercises, he looks at all of us in pain (he doesn't do the class with us) and smiles this little smile and laughs at us. I think he's probably like a serial killer, but your daddy told me I read WAY too many books. So I agreed with him, and decided I should go with my instincts, he's a super nice guy, which is true.
When I was sitting in church I thought of something I wanted to tell you: be thankful, no matter what! I was messaging one of my friends and we were talking about some of the hard things we'd been through. What that person was going through, to me seemed too difficult, so I replied, well, I don't know how I could handle that, but I guess God knew you could, because He promised us He would NEVER give us more than we can bear. My friend agreed and told me he was sorry for what I'd been through, and I thought, it's ok. This song came to mind, "Gods been Good" the lyrics are "....God's been good in my life, I've been blessed beyond my wildest dreams when I go to sleep at night, and though I've had my share of hard times I wouldn't change them if I could, cuz through it all, God's been good." You see, Tucson, in life you will go through many difficulties, I'd be lying if I told you it was perfect, but be thankful. I used to tell people, be thankful, because someone always has it worse than you, which who knows it may be true, but I've learned something. When you're going through a struggle, whether in reality it's bigger or smaller than the next person's, to you it's the same-your problem is just as big and as hard as theirs is. So why be thankful? Because God told us to in 1 Thess. 5:19, "In EVERYTHING give thanks for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you." I've learned no matter what you're going through-good or bad-if you're thankful in changes your perspctive and it makes it easier to go through. It's amazing how being thankful can make something hard either not hard or not has hard. I know it doesn't make sense, but it works. Try it! If it doesn't I'll buy you a dozen white chocolate macadamia nut cookies*. lol I love you baby!!!!

Your Sister,

*this is the fine print for those cookies, you must actually, tell God you are thankful for whatever it is. You can say, "God, thank you for ______." If you do not feel a weight lifted off your shoulders, a contentment t settle over you, a peace flood your soul, and/or however else God may chose to show His blessing. I will buy you a dozen cookies or something else you like for the same value or less. ;) hahaha