Day 197

Dearest Little One, I can't wait to see you! We're so close, but yet so far. We only have 12 weeks left! I wish it was tonight, but I want you to stay in there till you're ready. 
It's 86 days away till Christmas! I can't wait, it's my favorite time of the year. I've already started saving up for gifts. It was funny, I told Micah yesterday it was 87 days away and he said, "Does that mean I can start asking for stuff now??" lol Remember the play-dough? haha I said, yes. Then I thought about it, and I said why don't you wait a couple more weeks.
Last night our manager called, he had route he needed us to do afterall. :) Everything went smoothly, the papers were even early! Ohhh, I almost forgot to tell you! This dog tried to attack your daddy. He went up and threw the paper, then the dog grabbed the paper, and started running after him!  He tried to make it to the car, but the dog was too fast, so he just stood there. Finally, the owner came and got the dog. It was kinda funny, but there for a second I actually thought the dog was going to bite him! 
We just got back from the gym. Micah had his taekwondo class tonight. He jammed his toe really bad, so he couldn't finish the class. It's actually pretty swollen, but I don't think it's broken. 
Your brothers went to go practice with the rep team tonight, so they can get a feel for what it's like. They're going to meet the coaches and the other players. It should be good for them. 
I'm so tired, I think I'm going to sleep for a couple hours and get up when they get home. I love you! 

Your Sister, 
Larra

Day 196

Dear little One, right now I'm overwhelmed by the goodness of God. This morning, your daddy text me to tell me that there is no route in the morning. I was glad and sad at the same time, glad we don't have to get up, and sad because that's less money. I text your daddy back and said, well, that's good and bad. He said yes, then I text and said well, "the Lord gives and takes away, blessed be the name of the Lord." He replied God did both. You see the Lord took away the paper route for tomorrow and He gave our dad some other work to do. God truly is amazing. NEVER doubt God's ability to provide for His children.
Right now I'm at the library with Micah, we've changed days to either Tuesdays or Wednesdays. Thursdays just haven't been working out. I must say, now that we're back at the library on Sundays it really cuts down on any fines we might create. :) lol There's a bright side to everything. Speaking of that, in every situation of your life, remember that. At times in the darkest days, remember "all things work together for good; to them that love God."
I love you!

Your Sister,
Larra

Day 195

Dear Tucson, today I said good-bye to a very dear friend. I miss her terribly, I know we can keep in touch via facebook and msn, but it's not the same. The sad thing is I know I will most likely not see her for several years. Someone once said, missing some one gets easier each day, because although, it's another day apart, it's one day closer to the next time you will see them. I used to think that was a great quote, but is it really true? If you have to calculate years instead of days, where do you come out ahead? I don't know. Good-byes are hard kiddo. 
It's rainy today, it poured where I was at. I thought the weather had taken a turn, because when I got back to T.O. it was very sunny and bright, but now it's dreary.
You know I've been thinking a lot about the grace of God. It's amazing, unexplainable, uncomprehendable, I don't know where to start. The Bible says, "it's a fearful thing to fall into the hands of the living God." That is so true. The past couple of weeks I've been realizing how frail I am, and how there's nothing I can do, all I can do is trust in the grace of God. So far He's never let me down. I wish I could tell you what I'm tying to tell you, but I don't know how. It's like I've discovered my whole exsistence as a person is only by God's grace. It's the reason I'm alive, it's the reason I'm not in Crackdale selling myself on the streets, it's the reason my life's not jacked up, it's like for the first time in my life, I've come to terms with the fact I'm not in control no matter how hard I try, and all those years I thought I was, I was NOT, everything has happened because of the grace of God. Some people say call it fate, some people call it charma, some call it Providence, but I believe it's the grace of God. I don't know why, I can't explain it, I can't even comprehend it, I've learned though it's inexhaustible. Someone once described it in a axcronoym, 
God's 
Riches 
At 
Christ's 
Expence. 
If it wasn't for Christ, it would never be possible. Who would be willing ya know? So I don't expect to be able to figure it out, part of me wants to, but the other part knows I just have to "fall into the hands of a living GOD!" I love you kid, and I hope you make sense out of this someday. If not, I tried, I honestly did. I love you, I really do. 

Your Sister, 
Larra       

Day 194

Hey you! Today has been crazy so far! Last night we recieved an email from the Wilhites (missionaries to Africa) that said they were in Canada and they could come visit us. I was very excited! We wrote for years, but we've never met. They tried to come 4 years ago, but we were gone. So we frantically cleaned the house and came up with a meal plan. lol We made it work! So far we've had a blast! Everyone hit off. The boys played basketball, the parents told horror stories about having kids (JK!) and your sister, Dyanna, Debrianna and I went to tim hortons!:) Tonight, I'm spending the night with Dyanna. I'm going to miss her soooo much. I probably won't see her again for another five years. :'( So kiddo, I'm gonna let you go early. I love you soo much!

Your Sister,

Larra

Ps Dyanna wants to know if you're kicking at all? She wanted to feel you when you earlier, but
you weren't moving. lol

Day 193

Dear Little One, since you're so big now, I can feel you move almost everyday! I love it. It's still hard to believe a baby is inside my mommy's tummy, but it's true. Today, you were doing this weird movement, it felt like you were rubbing your arm across your mommy's inside, then it felt like you were jabbing her with your elbow. (she said that was pretty painful, so try to tone that down a bit. lol)
Today, your sister and I went and got coffee, at that new little place I told you about. They have some of THE best coffee. I'm addicted to it. It's americano coffee, so it's super strong! but I've had 3 in one week! I need to tone that down a bit.
I've enjoyed my day or night off rather! It's amazing how sleepy through one night really feels. lol I have one more day off and it's back to the grind. Sorry, this post is so short. Nothing exciting happened today. I love you!!

Your Sister,
Larra

Day 192

Hey kiddo! How's life in your world? :) Today's been a lazy day for me. I guess I wasn't too lazy, I did do the paper route. I can't wait to sleep all through the night!! lol After though, all I did was sleep and clean a little bit.
Did I tell you the boys were going to join a basketball house league? Today, they went for an evaluation. Next week is draft night. Scouts from the rep team were there, and they thought the boys were great! They offered to pay their way for rep league! The rep coaches said the practices were on Thursday and Sunday, and when they (your brothers) said they couldn't play on Sunday. They were willing to change the practice day just so they could play! Plus, the coaches were fine with them missing Sunday games in Tournaments. The decision hasn't been made to whether they're going to accept, but it was an honor that they were chosen!
It was funny, I did my hair tonight (straightened it.) and after I did it, I was doing laundry, so your daddy comes up to me(btw we have the BEST dad in the whole world!)and says, "wow, you must be really serious about that laundry, if you're gonna fix it just for that." hahaha I thought it was really funny, simple things amuse me. I told him I was trying to give a new and improved look for housewives. ahaha
Well, I'm going to hit the sack, I love you!!!!

Your Sister,
Larra

Day 191

Dear Tucson, today a miracle happened! The papers were early. I was so thankful to God, I was actually able to go back to sleep, at a semi decent hour. Tomorrow is our last day, then we get a 2 or 3 day break! yipee! I hope I remember what it's like sleeping all through the night. lol It supposed to be fall, and it's hot again! Today, it's 86 degrees! The past week or so, it's been in early 60's. It's really annoying, cuz it won't make up it's mind, and my allergies are driving me crazy! I can't breathe or sleep very good.
Your mommy has been watching these tv shows about having babies and stuff. I watched a couple with her today, in the midst of all the screaming and yelling, and excruciating pain, I thought it looked scary, so I ask your mommy if she was scared, she said no, she can do it, she's done it 5 times before! I think she just wants that baby out of her. lol
I'm sooo excited! Your daddy and I went to the bank, and afterwards, he took me to this mini outlet mall. There's this store I love called Garage. They have the best deals on clothes with something minor wrong with them. The other day I went the store and the sweater was $34, so I decided I didn't need it. Today, I went to the outlet store and they had one that was only $5!!!! The only thing wrong with it was it was missing a button, and they had taped the button on, because it had only fallen apart!!!! I love it. I'm so happy and thankful. I'm going to go to bed. I hope I can sleep tonight. I love you!!!

Your Sister,
Larra