Dear Tucson, I hope things are going okay in your world. I'm in a rock and a hard place today, I have no idea what to do. I've made a mistake, and it has majorly backfired in my face. Life is screwed up.
On a happy note, tomorrow we're going to the States to go shopping. :)Everyone's so excited!!! We've been counting down the days till your mommy was well enough to make the trip. We're not supposed to buy you any more clothes, BUT if I find something super cute...I just might have to get it for you. :)
We got to talk to your grandpa today. He's finished the last of his chemo treatments. He should find out by the end of this month if the cancers gone. I'm really hoping and praying it is! He's kind of had a rough few days with a cold, but he finished his antibiotics today, so they should work soon. I don't know where your grandma was, she might've still been at work. She has to drive an hour and a half (both ways) so it's pretty hard for her. :(
Well, I'm gonna go, always be careful who you trust. Do what the Bible tells us, "try the spirits to see whether they be of God..." The good thing about all of this is, I learned I need to seek and pray for wisdom in EVERY area of my life, not just the things I think I need help in. It's hard for this screwed up brain of mind to take in the concept that I don't know everything, and I need God for everything, even my next breath. So kiddo, I'm gonna let you go, trust God for everything. I love you!
Your Sister,
Larra
Countdown till Tucson's first appearance!
Thursday, October 7, 2010
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Day 203
Dear Tucson, how are you today? We are all doing well, even your mommy is having a good day! :) I helped out a lot with school today. I've been helping Alexa in Geometry, which I love and I helped Samuel and Landon in English. I did a LOT of scoring. lol :) Apparently, we're missing several score keys, so I had to score them with my own brain. ;) Make sure you study hard and do all your school work, it will help you out in life. Education is very important. I loved school, and I hope you will, too.
Yesterday, your parents went and checked out the hospital. The goal is for you to be born at home, but in case you were to decide to come before 37 weeks, you have to be born at the hospital, she said it was semi decent. Personally, I hate hospitals, so I would really like it if you come after 37 weeks:) If you do decide to come, rest assured I will still come visit you. I've survived the others, well, minus Micah. (he was born at home) She also got her Rhogam shot, she has to get one everytime she's pregnant because she's RH-.
Your brothers have for sure decided to play on the rep ball team. Their practices are on Thursdays and Saturdays till Feb. and then they will start the actual season.
I don't have any advice or at least I can't think of anything today (you're probably thinking, "thank God" lol) so just do what you know. :) I love you!!!
Your Sister,
Larra
Yesterday, your parents went and checked out the hospital. The goal is for you to be born at home, but in case you were to decide to come before 37 weeks, you have to be born at the hospital, she said it was semi decent. Personally, I hate hospitals, so I would really like it if you come after 37 weeks:) If you do decide to come, rest assured I will still come visit you. I've survived the others, well, minus Micah. (he was born at home) She also got her Rhogam shot, she has to get one everytime she's pregnant because she's RH-.
Your brothers have for sure decided to play on the rep ball team. Their practices are on Thursdays and Saturdays till Feb. and then they will start the actual season.
I don't have any advice or at least I can't think of anything today (you're probably thinking, "thank God" lol) so just do what you know. :) I love you!!!
Your Sister,
Larra
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Day 202
Hey little one! We made it through another week!!! You're 29 weeks old today! Eleven weeks and you should be here, it's so close I can almost feel it. :) The other day someone gave us your first books! Then another person gave you a lot of clothes! We probably won't have to buy you anything till after you're 3 months old. Praise the Lord:) We are going to buy you one more outfit for the day you're born. Not only will remember this day for the rest of our lives, but also everyone else will remember your very first picture! You don't want to look back 20 years from now and say they dressed me in that???!!!! lol ;) So thus begins the adventure of finding the perfect outfit for you...
I can't get this verse out of my head that I read yesterday. It's in Luke 5, it says, "they forsook all, and followed him..." I've never seen that verse before, it's talking about the disicples and how they left all to follow Jesus. All my life I've heard preachers preach from the verse that says, "they forsook him and fled." It was the time Jesus was about to be crucified and they forsook Him. No one ever told me that at first they "forsook all and followed" you see, they started out right, but somewhere in the middle they went along the wrong path. If you read history books, many of then were martyred for the name of Christ, so obviously they finished their race. I just can't shake they "forsook all, and followed Him." I guess what we should learn from them is, there must be a beginning where you "follow" maybe along the way you will "flee" but come back and follow. I think that's the hardest decision as Christians we make is to forsake all. I know it may not seem worth, but it is. If I could describe the sweet peace of surrender I think everyone would chose Christ, but I can't so most people are stuck in the middle. If perhaps in the middle of your journey you flee,(unfortunately, I have taken that path before) remember this, "God is never weary of a fresh start." That is a quote your dad reminds me as well as many others often. I've never found it to not be true, never. I love you little one! Grow up to be strong and follow Christ!
Your Sister,
Larra
I can't get this verse out of my head that I read yesterday. It's in Luke 5, it says, "they forsook all, and followed him..." I've never seen that verse before, it's talking about the disicples and how they left all to follow Jesus. All my life I've heard preachers preach from the verse that says, "they forsook him and fled." It was the time Jesus was about to be crucified and they forsook Him. No one ever told me that at first they "forsook all and followed" you see, they started out right, but somewhere in the middle they went along the wrong path. If you read history books, many of then were martyred for the name of Christ, so obviously they finished their race. I just can't shake they "forsook all, and followed Him." I guess what we should learn from them is, there must be a beginning where you "follow" maybe along the way you will "flee" but come back and follow. I think that's the hardest decision as Christians we make is to forsake all. I know it may not seem worth, but it is. If I could describe the sweet peace of surrender I think everyone would chose Christ, but I can't so most people are stuck in the middle. If perhaps in the middle of your journey you flee,(unfortunately, I have taken that path before) remember this, "God is never weary of a fresh start." That is a quote your dad reminds me as well as many others often. I've never found it to not be true, never. I love you little one! Grow up to be strong and follow Christ!
Your Sister,
Larra
Monday, October 4, 2010
Day 201
Dear Little One, how are things in your world? Things are good here. Today, I helped with school, and cleaned the house. It was kinda boring, but hey that's part of life. :)
Micah got a temporary cast for his toe. He can take it on and off for showers and at bed time. You pump it up when you put it back on so it will support the foot. When they went to the fracture clinic they told your dad it was going to cost $160 (which we didn't have). So my dad asked them if there was any other way. So the nurse went in the back, and she said, well, we have this one, some one used it for 2 days and brought it back. You can have it for free if you want it. So he said yes!!! God has been so good to us to povide for our needs. Back to the God's grace, who knows if he planned for that person not to need it, just so we could have a free one, all for the simple fact that He would keep His Word. :)
I've been thinking and complaining about this person in my church that I've been dealing with. They really get on my nerves sometimes. I go back and forth with treating them like Christ. Some days when God has all of me, everything is ok, but the days when I'm struggling, it's like they're a pain. I was coming out to the kitchen to complain again, when Landon started telling this story about a missionary in Africa who woke up one morning to something moving around in his throat. He stuck his hand in and pulled out a tapeworm, he kep pulling and pulling, finally, he got it all out. It was a 3 FOOT long tapeworm! Instantly, my little annonance with this person didn't seem so big. In fact, it seemed so small it didn't even bother me any more. I realized how wrong and unorganized my priorities were. You see, Tucson, I have life so good, and I couldn't even see it because I was blinded by my selfishness. Always be thankful for what you have kiddo, and don't complain, because who knows, you could always be pulling 3 foot long tapeworms out of your throat. I love you Tucson!!!
Your Sister,
Larra
Micah got a temporary cast for his toe. He can take it on and off for showers and at bed time. You pump it up when you put it back on so it will support the foot. When they went to the fracture clinic they told your dad it was going to cost $160 (which we didn't have). So my dad asked them if there was any other way. So the nurse went in the back, and she said, well, we have this one, some one used it for 2 days and brought it back. You can have it for free if you want it. So he said yes!!! God has been so good to us to povide for our needs. Back to the God's grace, who knows if he planned for that person not to need it, just so we could have a free one, all for the simple fact that He would keep His Word. :)
I've been thinking and complaining about this person in my church that I've been dealing with. They really get on my nerves sometimes. I go back and forth with treating them like Christ. Some days when God has all of me, everything is ok, but the days when I'm struggling, it's like they're a pain. I was coming out to the kitchen to complain again, when Landon started telling this story about a missionary in Africa who woke up one morning to something moving around in his throat. He stuck his hand in and pulled out a tapeworm, he kep pulling and pulling, finally, he got it all out. It was a 3 FOOT long tapeworm! Instantly, my little annonance with this person didn't seem so big. In fact, it seemed so small it didn't even bother me any more. I realized how wrong and unorganized my priorities were. You see, Tucson, I have life so good, and I couldn't even see it because I was blinded by my selfishness. Always be thankful for what you have kiddo, and don't complain, because who knows, you could always be pulling 3 foot long tapeworms out of your throat. I love you Tucson!!!
Your Sister,
Larra
Sunday, October 3, 2010
Day 200
Hey Little One! We made it to day 200!!! I'm so excited!!! We're another day closer to your arrival. I can't wait. I want to hold you in my arms.
Today we had a visitor in church. He seemed to have a zeal for God which was very encouraging. I love my church. There are times when I don't agree with the people, but I still love them and for now I wouldn't want to be any where else.
I was reading my Bible last night in Lev. 26, God had just gotten through telling them all the laws, and giving them the consequences for if they didn't obey. The part that really got to me at the end was verse 44-45, "And yet for all that, when they be in the land of their enemies, I will not cast them away, neither will I abhor them, to destroy them utterly, and to break my covenant with them: for I am the LORD their God. But I will for their sakes remember the covenant of their ancestors, whom I brought forth out of the land of Egypt in the sight of the heathen, that I might be their God: I am the LORD." No matter what the people did to God He would never hate them, that's amazing! The love of God, it's unexplainable and uncomprehendible. It's overwhelming that Almight God would love His children that much. Dear child, after you get saved if you ever stray from God, He will never forget you, He will always be there, no matter what you've done you're never more than a hearts cry away. Please, never be afraid to come home. I love you little one, I love you so much!!!
Your Sister,
Larra
Today we had a visitor in church. He seemed to have a zeal for God which was very encouraging. I love my church. There are times when I don't agree with the people, but I still love them and for now I wouldn't want to be any where else.
I was reading my Bible last night in Lev. 26, God had just gotten through telling them all the laws, and giving them the consequences for if they didn't obey. The part that really got to me at the end was verse 44-45, "And yet for all that, when they be in the land of their enemies, I will not cast them away, neither will I abhor them, to destroy them utterly, and to break my covenant with them: for I am the LORD their God. But I will for their sakes remember the covenant of their ancestors, whom I brought forth out of the land of Egypt in the sight of the heathen, that I might be their God: I am the LORD." No matter what the people did to God He would never hate them, that's amazing! The love of God, it's unexplainable and uncomprehendible. It's overwhelming that Almight God would love His children that much. Dear child, after you get saved if you ever stray from God, He will never forget you, He will always be there, no matter what you've done you're never more than a hearts cry away. Please, never be afraid to come home. I love you little one, I love you so much!!!
Your Sister,
Larra
Saturday, October 2, 2010
Day 199
Hey you! Guess what? This is our 90th post!!! Tomorrow we'll make it to Day 200! and in ten days I'll have written or well, typed, my 100th post! It's a miracle. :)
The route was very eventful this morning. The papers were late. We hadn't been going very long, it was probably quarter after 5. We (your daddy and I) got a call from our manager (he's really super nice.) and he asks us when we're going to finish our route. We said around 6:30. At first we thought he wanted us to do another route, but he just hung up after saying, oh, well I was just thinking about something. So we're like phew! lol Then at 6:27 you know who calls. I'm on the other side of the street and I can hear the phone ring, my first thought was either Micah hurt his toe again or it's our manager and he wants us to do another route. It really bugs me that people just don't show up for work. I understand if it's an emergency, but to just not show up? Seriously people! Our manager has been so nice to us, he's bent over backwards, so even though we were tired, we couldn't let him do the route (he has to do the routes if someone doesn't show up) (besides who wants to be working on saturday morning???!!!!:)so we drove back to the depot and started all over again! We did finish. I'm soooo thankful for our day off tomorrow!
Your sister, daddy, and I went to this Bible study at this lady's home. I almost think the study was more for me than it was for her family. The topic was from the verse, Luke 18:1b, "...that men ought always to pray, and not to faint;" I realized how little I pray. It was something I missed, it was like the light came on, I couldn't remember the last time I had a heart to heart conversation with God. Of course I pray, but it's just I pray for other people ask God to help me through the day, and then off I go on my merry way. When you feel faint in your life, and you're doing your reading your Bible, saying prayers, your involved in people's lives and it seems something's missing. Check your prayer life.
I love you!
Your Sister,
Larra
The route was very eventful this morning. The papers were late. We hadn't been going very long, it was probably quarter after 5. We (your daddy and I) got a call from our manager (he's really super nice.) and he asks us when we're going to finish our route. We said around 6:30. At first we thought he wanted us to do another route, but he just hung up after saying, oh, well I was just thinking about something. So we're like phew! lol Then at 6:27 you know who calls. I'm on the other side of the street and I can hear the phone ring, my first thought was either Micah hurt his toe again or it's our manager and he wants us to do another route. It really bugs me that people just don't show up for work. I understand if it's an emergency, but to just not show up? Seriously people! Our manager has been so nice to us, he's bent over backwards, so even though we were tired, we couldn't let him do the route (he has to do the routes if someone doesn't show up) (besides who wants to be working on saturday morning???!!!!:)so we drove back to the depot and started all over again! We did finish. I'm soooo thankful for our day off tomorrow!
Your sister, daddy, and I went to this Bible study at this lady's home. I almost think the study was more for me than it was for her family. The topic was from the verse, Luke 18:1b, "...that men ought always to pray, and not to faint;" I realized how little I pray. It was something I missed, it was like the light came on, I couldn't remember the last time I had a heart to heart conversation with God. Of course I pray, but it's just I pray for other people ask God to help me through the day, and then off I go on my merry way. When you feel faint in your life, and you're doing your reading your Bible, saying prayers, your involved in people's lives and it seems something's missing. Check your prayer life.
I love you!
Your Sister,
Larra
Friday, October 1, 2010
Day 198
Hey Little One! How have you been? I didn't get to feel you kick at all today! :( I guess that's probably because your mommy was gone all day. She went to the chiropractor, then she took Micah to the ER. His toe was still hurting really bad, and the chiropractor thought it could possibly be broken. So they were there for hours, and finally, he got it x-rayed and it was cracked. They put a temporary cast on it for tonight, and tomorrow he has to go back and have they're going to put a splint on it. We've been teasing Landon and saying he jinxed us when he broke his hand, because up until then no one had broken anything. :) Sibling love-there's nothing like it. lol
Today, I realized I was very jealous towards this person. You see they had more than me, and I was trying to do everything in my power to get "ahead" of them. It was wrong, and I've asked God to forgive me. The reason I'm telling you this is, I wasn't secure in who I was and what I had, I wanted more. Don't be like that Tucson, it will eat you up. Let who you are be in Christ, let Him be your everything, so you won't feel you need to get more than the person next to you. Be content. In Christ you will have everything you will ever need plus some. I know at times you may be sidetracked, because I am too, but when you come to the place where it's not enough, remember in Christ you can have everything. I love you kid!
Your Sister,
Larra
Today, I realized I was very jealous towards this person. You see they had more than me, and I was trying to do everything in my power to get "ahead" of them. It was wrong, and I've asked God to forgive me. The reason I'm telling you this is, I wasn't secure in who I was and what I had, I wanted more. Don't be like that Tucson, it will eat you up. Let who you are be in Christ, let Him be your everything, so you won't feel you need to get more than the person next to you. Be content. In Christ you will have everything you will ever need plus some. I know at times you may be sidetracked, because I am too, but when you come to the place where it's not enough, remember in Christ you can have everything. I love you kid!
Your Sister,
Larra
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