Day 144

Dear baby, how is life in your world? Today has been a very interesting day. lol We went to Orfus Road.(an outlet mall road, it really sucks most of the time, but sometimes you get good stuff.) We saw the weirdest thing, a BRIDE got on the bus! It's the worst, dirtiest, oldest bus route in Toronto, and a bride gets on. I was thinking, you couldn't get a cab on your wedding day????:) hahah I wish I would've had my camera! The things people miss when they don't live in downtown T.O.!

This picture is a picture of the sky with a full moon.( full moons come once every month) Your sister, Alexa, took this one. I thought it turned out beautiful! I wanted to show you a picture of the sky since I told you about it the other night, the picture doesn't do justice to how beautiful is really is, but it's still a great picture.:) Well, I gotta go, I'm supposed to help cook something, although I can't remember what. lol You daddy went to the store to get more food for your mommy, you must be sooooo energetic, because your mommy's still eating a LOT of food. lol She was doing some better, but since the van broke down, she had to walk and take the bus to the chiropractor, and it really wore her out, and she's been sore and had headaches. Hopefully, she'll be better tomorrow. I gotta go, I love you!!!

Your Sister,

Larra

Ps. I had to update the post. After I posted this, your mommy excitedly say, "I believe Tucson's moved up in the world!" (she said you were high up, instead of being so low in her belly) I just remembered I'm supposed to make gravy for the french fries. lol love you!

Day 143

Hey lil one! Today, I went over to a family in our church and helped them get ready for the school new school year. It seems summer has flown by!!! I'm glad we have 3 weeks left! I hope the hot weather stays though. Summer is my favorite time of the year, and it's the shortest season! I used to think I should pick a different season to be my favorite, but what one would I pick? I don't care for the cold, in the fall and spring I'm sick because of my allergies....so summer's perfect! lol Although, I do love ice skating in the winter.
Your brother was playing a song on youtube called, "You are God Alone." I love the lyrics, the ones that really stick out to me are:
"You are not a God
Created by human hands
You are not a God
Dependant on any mortal man
You are not a God
In need of anything we can give..."
You know Tucson, those words are so true. It's so easy to serve a God created by human hands. We say and to a certain extent believe in a God who's not created hands, but do we really? We put God in this box of what He can and can't do, and we justify it by saying it's common sense, when really it's our (or my) lack of faith. We want to believe the impossible, but at the same time in the back of our minds, we wonder can He really do this? He can! I know it's easier said than done, because honestly I don't believe God can do everything. I have faith God can do the impossible, but when I can figure it out? I don't know if that makes any sense, but I hope it does. I long to have that kind of faith in my everyday life. Sometimes, I do have that kind of faith, but like Peter, I look around at the waves, and want back in the boat.
"You are not a God dependent on any mortal man, You are not a God in need of anything we can give..." So often we think God needs us, it's like, we're doing God. The view of God that we have is jacked, we've changed into "the glory of an incorruptible God into an image made like to corruptible man..." There have been brief times in my life where I've seen God like Isaiah saw Him, "high and lifted up." I just need to take the time to see Him like that everyday. I know at times I'm telling you stuff that won't make since when you read this, but it will one day. It is my prayer you never lose that beautiful child like faith that God can do anything. Don't listen to what the world will you tell you, I know it will seem so good, but they're wrong.
I love you so much, more than you will ever know!

Your Sister,
Larra

Day 142

Dear lil one! Today, has been a very long day. It's been hot, and I walked all over kingdom come.:) lol Well, not really! The van broke down on Monday, so everyone has been biking or walking everywhere. It may seem difficult, but you get used to it. For some reason our van seems to break down every summer for a couple of weeks (or months! lol) I'm just thankful to God it's never broke down in the winter! ugh! It gets so cold here!!
I took Micah to the library. Every week we go on thursday afternoons. He loves the library, I like it too, but I seem to have read every good book I could find at our small library, so it's not as exciting to me any more. While I was looking at books with Micah, I came across these books that my mommy and daddy used to read to me when I was little. They were "Amelia Bedelia" books. I used to love those books! They were so funny, Amelia Bedelia takes everything so literal. When your older I will have to read them to you. It's funny how little things come back to you, when you're older. :) Well, that's all for today. I love you!!

Your Sister,
Larra

Day 141

Hey lil One!!! How are you today? Things are going good here. Today, it was very hot so I took Micah to the wading pool. As I sat there and watched him play he was having so much fun by himself. Although, I couldn't help, but notice all the other little kids seemed to act as if he wasn't there. I was thinking to myself, I wish some of the other kids would play with him and be his friend. The longer I sat there, I watched as all the kids seemed to follow this one girl. She was bigger than all of the other ones, and everyone seemed to follow her and do whatever she wanted. Then I noticed this one little girl who wanted to play by herself. The girl "in charge" didn't like this, so she went and told the little girl you can't be my friend any more. She began to cry, and said, no, please let me be your friend. So the bigger girl said, ok, now we have to test our friendship. So she made the little girl crawl on her hands and knees pushing a ball around the bigger girl in a complete circle, until she made it back to the bigger girl and gave her HER ball. So the bigger girl said, ok, I guess you can be my friend. I thought how sad. After watching this, I was glad that none of those kids wanted to be friends with Micah. I was like, what is this world coming to???!!! I was so disappointed, these are KIDS!! I mean KIDS!!! I know you probably thinking I'm ranting on, but there is a purpose Tucson, (micah i love tucson)<---(that note is from Micah) the purpose is I don't want you to ever be afraid to do your own thing. Be who you were made to be. I will back you up no matter what. In this world, there will be people pressuring you to do things, good or bad, do what YOU know is right and what YOU want to do. Don't follow the crowd, if the crowd happens to be doing what you're doing that's fine, but don't follow them because you feel pressured. I love you lil one, I know I can't protect you from everything out there, but I hope that I can prepare you for what is there. I want you to know, I will love you no matter what you will do, good or bad. It is my hope and prayer that you will choose right, but that said I know you won't always make the right choices. Because neither have I, but learn from the mistakes, and when you choose to do wrong, I will still love you. I may be sad, but I will NEVER stop loving you.

Your Sister,
Larra

Day 140

Hey baby! You're 20 weeks old today!!!! I'm so excited, we've made it half way there! 20 more weeks give or take a week or two and you will (Lord-willing) make your grand entrance to life.
Today is my half birthday, I'm 19 and a half.:) I know you're thinking that's so dumb, but it's actually a lot of fun! Every year on mine and your sister Alexa's half birthdays, we go shopping and buy something for ourselves. It's mainly just an excuse to spend money, but hey it works! lol If you're a girl you can join the tradition, but if you're a boy, well, you snooze you lose! hehehe:) Don't worry though, it's not like you won't get enough on your actual birthday or in between. :)
I'm sitting outside on the patio trying to get a wifi connection, for some reason my normal one isn't. The sky is beautiful tonight, it's midnight blue, my favorite. You would love it! I wish I could see ONE star, just one. As much as I don't care for the country, I love all the stars in the sky. When I went to Manitoba in the Spring the sky was lit up with stars, I'll have to take you there (or some other in the middle of no where place lol) sometime so you can see it. It's just amazing, I could stay out there all night. God definitely knew what He was doing.
I think it's time for me to hit the sack. I love you!

Your Sister,
Larra

ps, I think I may see one star, but I'm not sure if it really is a star...lol

Day 139

Hey Tucson! Today is a Civic Holiday in Canada. We have had a very nice and relaxing holiday. Well, your daddy and your sister did a early morning paper route. Then came home and we all slept in.:) We got up and had a nice breakfast. Then some people went back to bed, and I cleaned the house some. We got wonderful news that your grandpa's (in Missouri)tumor on his lung has shrunk two cm. after only 2 treatments of radiation! We are very thankful to God for that, because that is a miracle and we know it could only be Him.
Afterwards, I went out with a friend to a nearby park and we walked the trails and had ice cream. (yummy!) Samuel and Landon went with your daddy to go play basketball at the gym. I don't know what the rest of them did. Alexa is making MORE homemade ice cream since it's the holiday. I wanted to get pictures of everyone, but they are being "un-photogenic" and making threats at me...Your mommy said I would die, and never be allowed to use the computer, so I said I will just use my itouch. So she gave me the "look" and your sister threatened to kill me....Tucson, this place is very dangerous, I would think twice before you decide to pop. JK lol I can't wait till you do. I love you!!!

Your Sister,
Larra

Day 138

Dear Lil one! We've made it to another month! Today, is the first day of August. It was a beautiful day outside, today was the third Sunday of our summer adventure. :) I love going outside and meeting new people. It was really neat today, I was witnessing to this photographer, who was telling me he used his art to connect with God. (We were talking about having a relationship with God) I really had no idea what to tell him, so I was praying to Jesus for wisdom. The Holy Spirit brought to my mind the verse in Psalms, which says, "The heavens declare the glory of God, and his firmament showeth his handiwork."~fat cat bat(that's from your lil brother micah:)So I told him that verse and said, "everything in the earth points to God, and gives him glory, so God can use that to draw you nigh unto Him, but that's not all there is to having a relationship with God." I was so thankful to God for giving me wisdom.
Well, it's family time, and I'm the only not involved, so I guess I'll sign off, I love you!!!

Your Sister,
Larra